Still waiting!

Mom is still not an official Nana yet, but we are trying to work on that. I have taken many a walk, mowed the grass on our riding lawn mower, castor oil....Not advised!! ;) Raspberry leaf tea, and among other things, but still no Baby K. Every time I call mom, I can hear the anticipation in her voice. But Baby K is deciding to cook for a little while longer, the dinger has not dinged yet.
Mom does have more news as to the up coming treatments that she will be recieving but she would like to write some thing up again for you all to read, so that is yet to come. What we do know is that mom will be recieving a "port" for the Chemo treatments on Aug 13. And Chemo treatments will start August 18.
There is also as special event being planned at Emmanuel CRC in Calgary on Aug 21, for Mom, more details on that coming as well.
There has also been a trust fund set up for mom, to help off set some of the finanical strain. I will post exact details for that shortly as well. PLease Continue your prayers!!
Mom had a fantastic weekend with our family, and felt refreshed. Please continue to pray for strength for mom, as the cancer continues to take alot of energy out of her body, making the work week more challenging and exhusting!
We are all however very much excitedly wait for the arrival of Baby K, this is a long wait coming, and mom and family have been an incredible support through the trials of infertility and we so look forward to adding another member to our family. Please pray for peace of mind, and a safe delivery, and a healthy happy baby!

God Bless,

Alida, Wilma and Family

Our Inspiration!

Over the last few days, I talk to my mom everyday some times a few times during the day. Mom never ceases to amaze me with her strength, faith and hope. She continues to stay active, although the tumors are causing discomfort. Sleeping is sometimes difficult and uncomfortable for mom, please pray for restful sleeps at night, as this is the bodies best way of healing.
This week my mom's brother John and his wife Joanne are in Calgary from the State of New York. It is not to often that my Oma gets to have all 4 of her Children in the same province, these times when they are together are always special.
Tom and I are due to have a baby on July 26th, that is 8 days away, please pray for peace of mind and heart as I am so far away, and mom is so far away from me as well. This is a very joyous time, but a hard one too, as the distance keeps us apart. However we are planning on using technology to the best of our abilities with WiFi'ing from the Hospital, with a laptop and camera. Mom is soon going to be Nana, this is Big deal and very exciting for all of us!
We continue to ask for your prayers, and we ask that you continue to ask for healing, good days, and plenty of laughter and Joy!

God Bless

With Love in Christ,

Alida, Wilma and Family!

Dealing with the Reality

In the past few days I personally(Alida) have been working through the reality of the situation. I have had my very sad moments, my angry moments, and my moments of hope, and seeking to find celebration in each day. I know that many of my family members including mom have done the same, and we will continue too.
The true reality is very hard to take and I find myself wanting to deny the sad happenings around me. I would really like to be the ostrich that sticks its head in the sand, and pretends everything is just fine, however it's not. But the reality is, is that mom is still here, despite not knowing what the future holds, mom is still with us, still living, breathing, and loving us. That is the reality that I want to think about. Tomorrow will probably come, and we will deal with it then, but looking ahead to far is to scary right now, and its not mine to see until we get there.
We hold fast to the promise of life that God has given us through the victory over death, won by His Son Jesus Christ. No matter the outcome, God's love and grace has been poured out on us through his son. In this situation, we pray for a miracle, and know that there is a gift in everyday we live, we just need to choose to see it.

" Living in the moment means letting go of the past, and not waiting for the future. It means living your life consciously aware that each moment is a gift".
--Oprah Winfrey

We are all in need of daily prayer, and support, we have felt this so much already. As we live each day we will need prayer for the sad moments, grace in the angry moments, and we all hope for a miracle!

With Love in Christ,

Alida, Wilma and Family

Mom's update.

Yesterday I went to see the ocologist to see what the plan of action would be to treat the cancer. It was with great hopes of maybe a cure with Chemo radiation and surgery to treat the cancer. Last week however I found two new small lumps in my neck which I brought to the attention of the oncologist. Apparently these were seen on the CT scan as well but were considered borderline. Since then they have grown enough to be able to feel them easily. Anyways these new lumps are a sign that the cancer is spreading to other parts of my body. Therefore aggressive treatment with chemo radiation and very aggressive surgery may not be in my best interest, since a cure may no longer be possible and it may not really prolong my life, and it would be with great suffering. The final decision will be made by the team of 4 physicians who are treating me. The doctors would like to do a biospy of the lumps on my neck to make a positive diagnosis of this being cancer. The treatment option is looking more like still undergoing Chemo therapy to control the symptoms of the cancer with the goal to be to prolong my life for as long as possible but still have some good quality of life. Many people respond well and are able to enjoy a couple more years of life. I don't know more details as of yet but we will keep the blog updated.

I can not tell you how difficult it is to write these words and what sadness fill my heart to share this new with you all who care so much about me. I continue to press in prayer for a miracle of healing. I pray for wisdom in the many decisions I will need to make and how to live in this space of incredible uncertianty. I am reminded of the Isrealites when they crossed the Red Sea. Here they were in a desert with so many people. No food. No water. No home. God promised that they were going to inhabit the Promised Land and he would care for everything. They had to trust him and live in anticipation of being settled on day. God gave them a cloud to shade them from the hot sun in the day. and light at night, food and water and all they had to do was to go about thier day. remembering and worshiping the Lord thier God. I believe I crossed the Red Sea when I had breast cancer and I witnessed God's goodness in many ways. Now I must live in anticipation of what lies ahead even if I don't know what that looks like; Knowing God will take care of everything. I invite you to come along with me, let us continue to live and enjoy what God has generously given us. Let me share in your joy and your troubles, don't hide them for fear of hurting one another. Let us all LIVE; ruthlessy trusting in our loving Father.

With Love in Christ,

Wilma

Blog to be updated later today

I will update later today, but for now please pray for mom,( wilma)and our family as we have lots to process.

The right words to say are sometimes hard to find or express when all the information we were given has not been processed emotionally, spiritually and physically.

With Love in Christ,

Alida, Wilma and Family