Over the past number of weeks I have seen and felt the reality of my parents divorce still affecting us kids as legalistic things are worked out and I can't help but feel trapped once again by the reality of a messy divorce and strained relationships between two families. I just want to burry my head like an Ostrich and call it all good still, but that is not the case at all.
My brother Aaron is still very much struggling with depression, and anxiety, and a feeling of hopelessness, Philip the youngest, is hanging in there. He often writes poems, and spends as much time with friends as possible.
As for the update on me, I won't lie, I am not doing well. I feel that I have lost my bestfriend, my counselor and 
over all my mom. Can you ever feel good loosing a mom so young?
over all my mom. Can you ever feel good loosing a mom so young? Perhaps it is just the stage of grieveing that I am in, but I feel very much numb. So often, I find myself wanting to call mom and tell her what Tori just did, or what I just bought. Or ask her what she thinks of something. I miss her So much. However I do know that I am so blessed to have my daughter, and my husband to be my light in this dark time. Tori is growing like a weed, and we love her charming smiles, and her contagious giggles.Nana loved Tori I just wish she got to know her more. Tori was Baptized on December 5th, something that my mom wanted so much to be a part of, however my oma and aunt monique and uncle John and family were there.
God blessings
Alida
