I often dream of my mom at night usually in my dreams she comes back to life, and I am so excited to see her and I want to tell everyone I can that she is back, and healthy and strong, and then I wake up.
Last night was one of those times, I was coming home in my dream from somewhere, and when I got home my mom was standing in my kitchen, she ran to me and gave me a Huge hug! I wanted to start crying but I couldn't, because I couldn't be sad around her. I wanted to go and find my brothers and tell them first, but she said she couldn't go, but she loved me. Then she had to go, and I woke up. It was so vivid, so real, even the smell of her, she was wearing one of her favorite outfits, and the was glowing with healthy pink skin. I did not want to let her go, my arms felt like they were wrapped around her. One of the last real hugs I had from my mom was 2 days before she died, and I have longed so much to get one more hug. I must say believe what you want to believe when you read this, but I really felt her warmth around me and I could not help but want to keep dreaming. When I first woke up I thought it wasn't a dream for a few seconds, then I realized that it was in fact a dream. I miss my mom so much, and I have been missin her so much the last few weeks, just with all the stuff that has happened in the last couple of months, including UTI's for Victoria, 2 to be exact, cancelling a trip to Alberta because of it, going on a well deserved holiday, which was cut short by a Tornado hitting one of the farms that we own, taking out, a Storage shed, and corn. I have really been struggling with my faith in general, just a feeling of numbness, and I long so much to talk to my mom about it all. However she is not here in person to encourage me. This is the reality! One day at a time.
Good night.
Alida
