90 minutes in Heaven.

I started to read this book called 90 minutes in Heaven, when my mom was sick, and I couldn't read it, and neither could she, because she wanted to live, not go to heaven yet. But I picked this book back up again this past week, and it has given me a little more peace of mind. My mom blamed herself for not getting the help she needed when she could have, and I was angry that she would even think to feel that way, not mad at her, but that Satan would even think to put that idea in her head. But this book, gives me a glimpse that I hope and pray that when she reached heaven's gate that anything that she ever could have blamed herself for didn't matter anymore. She was so scared of how we would make it with out her. Since loosing her, I hoped that it wouldn't matter to her anymore, that in Heaven, all is perfect, including her. She was imperfect here, on earth yes, but in Heaven she is a radiant Beam of light, that is joining with the Angels singing as loud as she possibly can, and Loving every moment, with those who have gone before her. Each person has their own idea's of what Heaven is like and I have found solace in knowing that my mom is in Heaven. With saying all that life is not easy without her here, we miss her terribly everyday. Some days are better then others, we are nearing the 1 year anniversary of her death, and it is going to be a very hard day. October 2nd is not a day we would care to remember, but it will come around every year, and I hope that in time the pain will be less, and that we will remember her more, in living out Godly lives, and seeking to Christ as our rock and foundation. Our daily lives continue, and time will move on, in the book 90 minutes in Heaven, Time stops, or maybe it is that it does not matter, we will not be known by the physical scars or the emotional ones for that matter, so we need to take each moment here on this earth and live it out, for in heaven all will be perfect. I love you Wilma(Mom) my super mouse.

Love,

Alida

Walk on the water by Britt Nicole (With lyrics)

My sister inlaw's introduced me to this song, and I am fallen for it. Because it really discribes , my mom's faith, and doubts but also God's grace. If we take that first step he won't let us go. Life will go on, and we need to take that first step, which is not always easy, especially when the heart really hurts, like mine does, I would rather go and hide, and my hope feels stolen. Faith is what I need. Hope you enjoy it!

Alida