Moving forward

Mom and I have had an amazing emotional time together the the last 5 weeks, today I am returning to Ontario, I will be keeping the blog up to date from there, as I will be staying in contact with my mom on a daily basis. We have kept busy with our long amazing chats, and crafting(The picture), just spending quality time together. Philip and Aaron were over for supper last night and we enjoyed a dinner together as a family. It had been a really long time, we enjoyed some Christmas sparkling wine, it was amazing!!( The wine and the company that is). We toasted to mom's journey and a full recovery and healing! We toasted to our family all the love and support that we have had, and will continue to need to have. It has been an emotional roller coaster over the past weeks, and we are not off of the roller coaster yet. We have journeyed together and will continue too! I am handing my mom over to other capable hands that will be able to care for her, although mom said to me that she will be missing me, because it is just a security to know that someone else is in the house with her. So my absence I know will be felt and we know that I am feeling very torn, but there is a time for everything. I know that God is protecting her and I know that God has given her an amazing family, and I have seen the support that true friends give as well!

Like I have said we love to laugh around here, it breaks the fears and the worries that we all have, at least for a few moments, and those moments are truly treasured. Our pets have given us the chances to laugh, as well as playing games like Yahtzee and enjoying a nice glass of wine.

I have to give a side note: No animals were hurt in the process of laughing!!

We do plenty of crying around here too! We cry about our fears, but also about God's overwhelming amazing grace and we know that he will provide for us, no matter what happens in the coming weeks, months. This time here for me as well as mom has been unforgettable, if the circumstances were any different I would not have been able to be here the length of time that I have been. I am truly grateful for the oppertunity to be here. My relationship with mom has grown incredably as our relationship has gone from little girl and her mom, to Woman to Woman, Friend to Friend, however she will always be mom and I will always be daughter!!

Mom did get an appointment at the Tom Baker Cancer Center, January 29th at 11:00am mom will be meeting with the Oncologists, to decided the next step. Right now, as far as we know she will not need radiation, because the type of Cancer she has will not respond to Radiation. But this again is up to the Oncologist.

But Chemo looks to be the best option. We have found there is no easy way to deal with Cancer, it just plan stinks! But I know in my heart that mom will be declared cancer free, and she will return to normal life, but forever changed, because Cancer has entered our family and will be forever changed.

Please pray for Tom and I as we journey by car back to Ontario, and please pray for mom as I go home, and our time with each other is coming to an end for a while.

Please give mom a call just to say Hi, or drop in for coffee, she would love it! It is a long hard road, and the simplest things make the biggest difference to someone who is battling cancer! God's Blessings to all!

Please take good Care of my mommy!!

Signed Alida Kroesbergen